[That gets Tuan to look up again at Miach's face in confusion. Tuan never had a clear idea of what it was that Miach would have to say to any of this, but after this hollow conversation she wasn't expecting something so private. It almost makes her smile wanly. Ultimately it doesn't really change the past or how much it stung knowing MIach had actively decided against trying to contact her because it had 'no point.'
Part of Tuan is still angry about that. Perhaps that feeling won't truly go away any time soon; Miach didn't seem to understand what the crux of the issue was after all. She'd deflected and demanded Tuan explain something entirely different and in the end... she was expected to sweep all of this under the rug and let the past be the past.
In a way that was just typical of MIach, too. It's strange to think of her that way when she was always so thorough and careful with details for her dangerous, seditious ideas. But when it came to discussing subjective human experiences like the fear of falling. she always had her own ideas and those ideas were hard to combat given how articulate and well read she was. It certainly hadn't helped that back then, Tuan can admit to herself that she was a foolish little girl who was easily enchanted by someone so different from everyone else.
And truthfully, she knows that hasn't changed at all. Despite it all, she wants to accept Miach's words as an unspoken declaration to start over together. Despite it all, part of her wants to nod and tightly hug the person she thought about every single day for the past three years.
But it's just too soon for her own state of mind to readily accept.]
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Part of Tuan is still angry about that. Perhaps that feeling won't truly go away any time soon; Miach didn't seem to understand what the crux of the issue was after all. She'd deflected and demanded Tuan explain something entirely different and in the end... she was expected to sweep all of this under the rug and let the past be the past.
In a way that was just typical of MIach, too. It's strange to think of her that way when she was always so thorough and careful with details for her dangerous, seditious ideas. But when it came to discussing subjective human experiences like the fear of falling. she always had her own ideas and those ideas were hard to combat given how articulate and well read she was. It certainly hadn't helped that back then, Tuan can admit to herself that she was a foolish little girl who was easily enchanted by someone so different from everyone else.
And truthfully, she knows that hasn't changed at all. Despite it all, she wants to accept Miach's words as an unspoken declaration to start over together. Despite it all, part of her wants to nod and tightly hug the person she thought about every single day for the past three years.
But it's just too soon for her own state of mind to readily accept.]
Ok.